Sidewalks Part III - danger zone just trying to take a stroll

So I know I mentioned practically taking my life in my own hands just getting my mail at the mailbox but I nearly got mowed down by some asshole in a Mercedes SUV last Friday night just walking the dog. Here again I want to emphasize if our damn street had sidewalks throughout the neighborhood, my near brush with death would be nonexistant.

I was out with the dog just at dusk. I brought my flashlight, almost as an after thought; thank goodness A said to take it! I was walking down our street (flashlight on, brightly lit) where it essentially forms a T with a connecting street and there is a STOP sign at the corner of the connecting street. I am walking in the street (no sidewalks, remember?) when suddenly I see this giant black SUV coming toward me and making a huge arc coming from the connecting street. Apparently asshole SUV decided to take that turn way wide (probably because he was not paying attention). Me and the dog had to jump (nearly dive) onto the lawn of the house I was walking in front of. As I watched the car continue on and I yelled "asshole, what the fuck was that?" I see the woman in the passenger seat with this look of shock and her mouth in the shape of an "o".  I so wished the windows were open.

INTJ

INTJ- Meyers-Briggs personality type. That's me. It's a blessing and a curse. No. Scratch that. It's a curse. If you're not one of these you have no idea what it is like to be stuck in your head all day and have others not be able to figure you out.

I unfortunately have others misinterpret me on a constant basis. And to top it all off, I am not the classic INTJ who doesn't get bothered by misgivings in others. I take it to heart and get bent out of shape and blame myself if others don't agree. What the hell?

Does that sound sane to you?

I am too accomodating, and never look out for myself. I am quick to blame myself and take the blame, often for things that have nothing to do with me! What the hell?

Does that sound rational?

But, INTJness makes me an excellent scientist. So if anyone were to doubt that in me, shove it. And I can prove it. And fuck you for ever doubting me.

Wish I could give my INTJness away and trade it in for something more present. I feel like others feel like I'm never present. I feel like I have to constantly prove to others when I am. I wish I could get away from myself sometimes...forget the inside and focus on what goes on around me. It's really hard. You have no idea.