INTJ

INTJ- Meyers-Briggs personality type. That's me. It's a blessing and a curse. No. Scratch that. It's a curse. If you're not one of these you have no idea what it is like to be stuck in your head all day and have others not be able to figure you out.

I unfortunately have others misinterpret me on a constant basis. And to top it all off, I am not the classic INTJ who doesn't get bothered by misgivings in others. I take it to heart and get bent out of shape and blame myself if others don't agree. What the hell?

Does that sound sane to you?

I am too accomodating, and never look out for myself. I am quick to blame myself and take the blame, often for things that have nothing to do with me! What the hell?

Does that sound rational?

But, INTJness makes me an excellent scientist. So if anyone were to doubt that in me, shove it. And I can prove it. And fuck you for ever doubting me.

Wish I could give my INTJness away and trade it in for something more present. I feel like others feel like I'm never present. I feel like I have to constantly prove to others when I am. I wish I could get away from myself sometimes...forget the inside and focus on what goes on around me. It's really hard. You have no idea.